My Anti-Biography | Part 52 - Miss You, Dad

 Miss You, Dad 

I had a dream about my dad just a few minutes ago. I was out with Teresa and my sisters and one of their husbands and their mom. We were in Redmond, where my dad lived, and we were all out in the late afternoon for dinner. In the dream, my dad was back home still fighting his cancer. Apparently, we had just left there after a visit.  

I suddenly realized there was a voice saying, "hello?" from my pocket. I reached in and found an old cradle-phone hand set that had apparently been bumped and accidentally dialed my dad back at the house.  

I picked it up and talked to him, but he was so very groggy and incoherent I had clearly waken him up. The more we talked, however, the more cogent he became until he was back to his normal, very intelligent and charming self.  

And then we were both there in the mall where the family was going to have dinner. They were going into the restaurant, and I as with him at a round concrete table along the walk. He was sitting on the concrete bench and I was standing and kneeling down to hear him.  

We had a conversation about his medication. He was saying, "You know, the medication is the reason I get so tired, not the disease." I asked, "Which one?" He said, "No, the other one..."  

And then I was waken up by Clarice, one of our cats, who vomited three times in three different place on the bedroom carpet. I leapt out of bed and cleaned each spot.  

When I came back, Oak, another of our cats, had taken my place, and I started playing the Simon & Garfunkel song, Cecelia, in my head, "I got up to wash my face; when I came back to bed, someone's taken my place."  

Since it was already daybreak, I got up. Few minutes later Teresa got up. I told her of the dream. I said, "I'm actually glad Clarice woke me up. I'm sad the dream was interrupted, but if it hadn't been, I might not have remembered it."  

And as I spoke, I began to sob. I finally told her, "I felt close to him again... It was good to spend a little more time with him.... I miss my dad.... " 

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